In early May, I wrote a post about seeing October Baby with Carrie. This past week, I received a copy of the dvd in exchange for posting about it here and after watching it again - I just have to say again what a great movie I think it is.
And, since it's already been said - I'm going to re-post my original thoughts after seeing the movie. I think it's interesting that I titled the post Brokenness is Beautiful - because this time through in watching the movie I heard that very phrase in a song that plays during the end credits.
Brokenness is Beautiful (originally posted May 2, 2012)
mentioned in my last post that I wanted to share about seeing October Baby.
Carrie had already seen it but when she announced she would make me a deal
where she would go see it again with me if I would watch Downton Abbey again
with her - it was all settled.
We did something my brother-in-law still seems incredulous over and we took
Naomi with us. Sweet, two month old Naomi. We're either crazy or have relaxed a
ton since having six children between us. Personally, I think we are closer to
the latter, but probably somewhere closer to desperate to do something normal
as sisters rather than mommies for a change.
At any rate, after a few "dicey" (that is a Carrie word if there ever
was one) minutes at the beginning, Naomi was amazing and we soaked up the movie.
I realized that I connected with the main character because she is
introspective and so am I. Ridiculously so. And, I admitted that there is a
side of me that likes raw and real and brokenness because there is such beauty
there. When I feel like I am in a broken place, often my heart feels beautiful
then and I feel the most real in that time and the closest to God. When tears
are close and come quickly, it hurts and is healing at the same time. Make
Things (unrelated to the movie and no, not a deep dark secret, just
things they aren't ready for right now) came to mind that I will need to
tell my children at some point and I do
not see my way clear through that right now. But I can tell you plain as
that I do.not.ever. want them to wonder why I did not tell them
sooner or why I never told them and they found out another way. Bottom
here is I am trusting God to let me know when the time is right because
other scenario, I will completely mess it up.
I love watching someone else love someone who is going through the raw, real
and broken. That is a beauty in and of itself and brings a gratefulness to my
heart and mind in knowing that there are people in my life who love me like
Is it completely insensitive and crazy of me to admit that I find broken
beautiful? Certainly God does and I don't mean that in a sick convoluted way
but I think it goes back to the introspect in me and perhaps the fact that I
feel broken much of the time.
This is a movie I would love to own someday and hope my kids will watch with me
when they get older and see a couple of things including how valuable life is
and how beautiful love and forgiveness can be.
Is broken beautiful to you?
Disclosure: I received a copy of October Baby to review and share about here, all opinions are my own.