Thursday, August 23, 2012
The Hard Blessing
Things are settling into a routine around here - and God has been so gracious. The things He laid on my heart this summer have been put into place and we are reaping the benefits of slow day, unplugging the phone, staying home more and being much more firm about our schedule. I am more calm and peaceful and am truly getting more done.
And, while all of these things are a blessing - it strikes me that there is a hard side too. The side that has to say no to a friend again. To make the tough decisions - we're facing one right now which might include switching where the girls take dance all in the interest of reducing our time away from home. To know that I cannot please everyone. And, to know that many will misunderstand why I am doing things the way I am.
I know, I know - it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. The most important thing for me to do is be faithful to this calling God has given me. Right now - His call on this home is that we have three children that I stay home with whom we feel convicted to home educate. That alone is a serious calling that requires rigorous boundaries.
I'm learning that I have been too relaxed with some of these boundaries in the past and really paid for it. Stepping outside of these boundaries or relaxing them bears consequences - when I'm out of the house for two days straight, my kitchen instantly looks like this again:
When my kitchen looks like this, I am no longer a calm and peaceful feeling mama! I am walking through the lessons in learning how to do the hard things that are right for our family in order to reap the blessings that God is holding out to our home.
Psalm 16:6, "The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance."
Yes, inside the boundaries God has laid on my heart - there is peace, a pleasant knowing that I am walking in His ways, delight, multiplied time and a calm that only He can bring.