Wednesday, April 11, 2012
When looking back helps today.
An ongoing project for me has been my goal of getting my blog into books to keep - I posted here about the first one I finished here. Then, I finished a second one last summer and a third one just a few weeks ago! I still have 2009, 2010 and 2011 to complete - but at least I'm making progress!
As I was going through posts and editing pictures and text to get this last book finished, I was encouraged, challenged and reminded. It is so easy for me to feel guilt as a mom - I'm not doing enough with my children, not redeeming this precious time that I've been given, it is so easy to focus on perceived failures and guilt.
Looking through encouraged me, though - as I saw all the fun things we've done together and the legacy of memories we've stored up. No, I have not done everything right and I've certainly made mistakes and poor choices at times. But, God was showing me it has been enough because it has been me following Him and responding in obedience and just doing what I know to do in His strength.
And, looking back challenged me - I saw wisdom in some of my posts and wondered where that wisdom has gone as I feel far from wise these days. I don't think I felt wise in the past when I wrote those words - but as I look back at them now I am humbled and also kind of sad that I don't still see that person in me. Yet - I learned from revisiting those thoughts.
Sometimes looking back is harmful - longing for the past or a place we used to be, but in this case it was a huge blessing to me! It is just another way keeping a blog is a blessing to me!