When the clutter is piling and the chores are back logging, I realize that more than just my work is needing attention. I wonder when the last time I did anything artsy was? Why haven't I been in God's Word as much lately? When did I last plan a special time for my sweet family?
All of these areas need attention at the moment - and I know that beauty and time in God's Word are sure ways of feeling refreshed and rejuvenated. Regardless of all the work that needs to be done, sometimes I know that I must start with something beautiful and meaningful for the strength to get back to work with motivation and energy.
While at the store yesterday, I bought these white tulips for myself. And, this simple act of beauty spurred a morning idea, which turned out to be very hard for me and a struggle.
I made muffins, packed the wagon and planned on spending the entire morning over at our little neighborhood lake. This spot is a favorite of my children so what better way to encourage them and create a little beauty?
The walk over was lovely, the sun was rising through the trees and making everything look pretty. Flowers are blooming everywhere - it was just really nice!
We got our breakfast all set up and realized how terribly bad the sand gnats were. There were just swarms of them all the time, I had to keep my hand moving constantly in front of my face to keep them moving away. Then, they crawl in your hair and all three of my sweet children were scratching their heads like crazy - yet they did NOT complain one bit about it.
But, this mama was really struggling. Oh, Lord - to create something beautiful, do something special together, be refreshed - please! But, it was not His will today for some reason. It was one of those moments where I wondered why God would create such an annoying little pest to ruin our desire to enjoy His Creation. (So I will long for my perfect Heavenly home is the answer that popped into my mind.)
I came home with a heavy heart and to face this:
It just was a rough day and I don't say this to have a pity party. But, to be real. Sometimes I think that I love taking pictures and looking at the beauty that it is possible to observe and create because it is not messy. When so much of my life feels messy, it is just nice to have something be tidy or beautiful.
And, too - I think that we often look at each other through a limited view on a blog and think that her children always enjoy everything she plans for them and the weather is perfect where she lives and this and that. Just as a photo only captures what we want it to show - our blogs can become similar if we let them.
Several hours later, as I look at these pictures - I do see beauty. I don't see the gnats or the frustration or the disappointment. And, I am thankful for this. Somehow even when it is so hard, I must continue to trust that He is still in control. He still knows what He is doing. Even if I never understand the why - I must continue to trust. And, I must not give up!
As I sat down to write this post, this is not what I intended to write. But, again - He has another plan.
Tonight, I wonder ~ are you overwhelmed? struggling? feeling lost in clutter? missing beauty in your life?
I am right there with you friend! You are not alone! I think God wants to remind us that we are in this together and none of us are perfect, none of us have it all together. Each day is one step at a time.
Let's link arms and build one another up! I would love to pray for you (and would you consider praying over the comments as well?) if you would leave a comment or e-mail me!