Really, during the exam - we are the ones answering questions, performing certain tasks, etc... and the one conducting the exam may be very quiet - just taking everything in and observing.
But, feedback is what we're really waiting for. Educated opinions about our set of symptoms. Isn't that true in so much of life - feedback is what we often crave? This prompts me to ponder: whose feedback am I seeking? I bet you can guess where this is going!
Think of it this way - when we have a physical symptom of something we may be wondering about - we start looking for feedback...or is this just me?!
I've been known to look symptoms up online, ask friends, etc... but, rarely do I call one who knows - set up the appointment, describe the symptoms, seek professional advice. Why? Because it seems like a small thing or I don't want to be laughed at or incur the extra expense.
Would I really just go ask Joe down at the corner for help when I need someone who knows?
My point is this - I will begin looking so many places for answers - but when it comes to my spiritual sight or any other aspect - who knows me better than my Lord?
Part of my job during the hearing of the diagnosis is to listen. Really listen to what is being shared. I need to be willing to hear the results, to receive and be open to what I hear even if I don't like it.
God is an expert on our nature and hearts - He made them! When He reveals an area to me, I must be open to hearing from Him. To hear His heart for me.
This can be scary - it is an extremely vulnerable place. And, while not every doctor I've encountered has a good bed-side manner, God has that down pat! He is an expert in caring for us, in showing grace and tenderness. We can trust the source and know we won't need a second opinion!
When we submit ourselves to being examined in light of the standard of His Word - we may immediately see where we've fallen short.
Ultimately, this is always our diagnosis isn't it? We've fallen short of God's standard.
Other times, we may notice a theme emerging from studying His Word or He may place a theme in our hearts where we are struggling.
When I am truly submitted to Him, really seeking His heart - I believe He will reveal the root of the problem to me.
As I was working through this study, I recall one night really struggling with fear and the unknown, and again starting to see myself as less than God sees me.
He brought all of this to mind and my next thoughts were - what is God's standard? How does He see me? (This is the exam at work!)
And, then my heart heard - anything that makes me feel captive or in bondage is not God - He brings freedom!
This brought to mind a sign I have in my entry way: By Grace Alone. I really looked at the words, I read the message on the back.
What it really boils down to! I was able to be at peace - after the exam, diagnosis and prescription! And, it is just a quick example of the process - it is not a one time deal, but a way to train myself to respond when I notice the symptoms creeping in.
"Where the Spirit of the Lord is - there is freedom."
I feel like I've rabbit-trailed a bit in sharing this - but it is a trail He has led!
And, then I see that it isn't really off the trail at all when I consider this:
When we receive a diagnosis for our symptoms - we are instantly a student. We are learning and this knowledge will serve us again and again. We will remember what the doctor said and maybe seek out more on what he shared. This will begin to shape our thoughts and form a place we can add to and come back to anytime we need it.
As I look back over this lengthy post - I see: grace and freedom from Him cover it all.