At one point yesterday I was so discouraged and felt so defeated. God brought this idea to mind -
"Is what you are feeling conviction or condemnation?"
I'm still processing and sorting all of this out, but I know that I've felt some of both. God is good and He will show us the way, if it were easy - I would not rely on His strength.
Here are some initial thoughts:
Thanks to my friend, Anissa, who sent, "A Psalm for the Disrespected Mom!"
"I lift my eyes to You,
O God enthroned in Heaven.
We keep looking to the Lord our God for His mercy,
just as servants keep their eyes on their master,
as a slave girl watches her mistress for the slightest signal.
Have mercy on us, Lord, have mercy,
for we have had our fill of contempt.
We have had more than our fill of the scoffing of the proud
and the contempt of the arrogant."
~ Psalm 123
I was challenged by the thought that a couple of you pointed out that Emily and Rachel may not be disrespecting me. But at their tender age, I may be provoking them to wrath. Oh, how sad this makes me to even consider.
I was challenged also by Leanne to consider not raising my children to respect me but to train them to be "respectful, loving and godly!" What a beautiful reminder of our true goal, thank you!
I was encouraged by many of you that I am not the only one facing these struggles and knowing we are all in it together somehow helps!
I spent more time considering Megan's words than any other I think. She shared that when facing a similar stage in life - she realized her alone time was becoming an idol. Ouch. I was hit with the realization that I've been so concerned about what a frustration and inconvenience this situation is to ME and to what I want, that I haven't been focusing on what would be best for my children or our family as a whole. Lord, please forgive me for my selfish pride.
Rachel, thank you for the reminder, "God is using these challenges in mothering for his glory and your good, and the good of your children." Amen - I needed to hear this.
Thank you for sharing from your own trials, pointing me to Scripture and for all of the practical suggestions with some funny stories thrown in too! I'll be thanking God for each of you today and lifting my eyes beyond myself to look to Him!
On a fun note - guess who is coming to our home this afternoon? Yeah - we are so excited!