Moving on to the next question, "Am I afraid of truly pursuing a clean heart?"
Here is what I journaled on this question:
The short answer is: YES! Ok, now let me expand on this thought...
It is a bit frightening to pursue a clean heart because I am fully aware of the fact that there are unclean things in my heart that will need to be cleansed in order that I may be pure. Sometimes these areas are more difficult than others and I fear the pain and humility that will be required along the way.
"Then He said to them all, 'If anyone would come after Me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me.'" ~ Luke 9:23
I'm reminded of a quote by C.S. Lewis:
"We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
This is why I'll need to go back and consider why it is so important to have a clean heart. And, if I'm really honest with myself - I truly do want to have a clean and pure heart. I know that nothing clean comes from being lax or lazy.
It's easy to create clutter, a mess, allow things to remain dirty. Cleanliness takes a lot of work - consistent effort and discipline.
Wow - that can be applied in so many areas: my heart, my home, you name it. In the end - yes I'm afraid to truly and completely pursue a clean heart - but I'm even more afraid of refusing to.
As a dear friend says,
"Lord, You know I'm not willing. But, I'm willing to be made willing."
I'd love to hear your thoughts...
The next question we'll answer is "Does my life reflect a clean heart?" However, I'm planning to take a break from this series to share Valentine ideas and then pick it up again after that. Thanks for all of your great comments yesterday!