When I am pregnant (and for months afterward), my skin goes haywire ~ all those raging hormones seem to manifest themselves as red bumps on my face. I finally had nice beautiful skin, and then I started having babies.
But, what happened the other day - really taught me a lesson after it hurt my feelings.
I ran into a friend in the morning at the store - where she found out that we were expecting. I did not have a good feeling about the way the conversation went, but I asked God to forgive me. However, I was obviously stressed about this encounter - as it affected my attitude the rest of the morning which Emily can attest to!
I finally managed to work through that attitude and come out positive again after lunch. Emily was bedded down for her nap and Rachel was playing happily nearby. I was sitting on the floor near the toys working on setting up my prayer journal.
Let me just add here that I am very lax about my prayer life - and I know this needs to change and I want it to change. So, I am trying again to become more disciplined in this area. I have asked many friends how they organize or even keep track of all their prayer requests and I decided to give a prayer journal another try.
So, sitting here - listing out things that are on my heart I want to be in prayer over - one of the things that came up was my skin. Let's be realistic - I am very self conscious about it. Could it be worse? Absolutely. Could it be better? Yes.
Just as I finished listing my requests, a car pulled in the driveway. It was the friend I had run into that morning. She knocked on the door and handed me a bag with some skin care products in it. I felt sick. I cried.
Then, it hit me that I had just listed this as a prayer request. Could it be that God cares enough to answer this prayer within five minutes? Yes, it was a huge blow to my pride - and initially to my heart. I still can't put too much thought into it without getting hurt again. But, what passed through my mind was a line from Facing the Giants, "I will still praise You, Lord."